boxes wrapped up underneath the christmas tree.

every year around this time, i get a little sad.
if you know me well, its not hard to figure out why but i've grown and learned to forgive and forget about the things that hurt me in the past.
so i decide to reflect on the achievements and the things i'm most proud of.
i thought of one conversation i had with my friend, and i decided that the one thing i wanted for christmas wasn't you but just to be happy.
causing my new years resolution to go on dates and to date.
not to get wrapped up in relationships unless i liked the person, and not to jump into it with both feet but to tip toe around it and make sure it's the right thing for me.


yes, i'm the first to tell you, i'm a flirt and a tease.
its not my fault, its in my nature, and i noticed that i had a crush on you not for you but for the person you are, the person that i wished every boy i was with before was. your the perfect guy but i don't know what it is with you but you make me forget who i am and want to be with you just to breath the same air as you.
i don't know if its you or the person you are, we hang out in a group of friends..
we constantly look at each other, i constantly want to be in your arms after that night i laid there for hours, it was blissful, amazing, and surprising, i've never wanted to just be near to someone like i want to be with you.
what do you have over me ?
and can i have it back ?
i don't know if i can continue to be in love with you from a far..